Awareness Play
Total honesty with yourself

"There is a voice that does not use words. Listen, it comes like dawn,
  and you wake up laughing at what you thought was your grief.

   We dwell intimately close to a door of revelation we are afraid to pass through. Being wholeheartedly with what is, being with what we truly feel deep inside; not holding back, not turning away, sitting with it, talking with it, and not rushing in to avoid it or cover it up is precisely what takes us to truly come out on the other side.

Garden in the Hills

  " Eternity consciousness was so palpably real that I put my hand up to probe the back of my skull, half wondering if the doctors had sawn part of it away to open my head to infinity. Yet it wasn't in the least a feeling of being damaged; it was more like having had a cataract taken off my brain, letting me experience the world and myself properly for the first time, for that lovely dark radiance seemed to reveal the essence of everything."  (John Wren-Lewis)

  " I stayed with my feelings, with what is. Emptiness came into view. Deep inside I did not turn, I did not run. Silence descended, I became empty, and
the world became full. "  (OmJaya)

  " Total honesty has taken me to the shattering realisation; I am not what I took myself to be, nor am I otherwise. That void prior to consciousness, that dazzling dark is real, and it is me. The core of my being is non being." (OmJaya)

  " Then all schools were given up, all effort ceased; in solitude and darkness the vast step was made which ended ignorance and fear forever." (Nisargadatta. Maharaj)

  " Those who will not slip beneath the still surface on the well of grief, turning down through its black water to the place we cannot breathe, will never know the source from which we drink, the secret water, cold and clear." 
(David Whyte)

  " Without realising the absolute; desires, disappointments and fears repeat themselves endlessly. Go out wholeheartedly and reach the timeless perfection to which nothing can be added nor taken away from. " (Nisargadatta. Maharaj)

  " Facing all fears and the loss of all, the illusory difference between life and death, between being and non-being dissolved, and I have emerged into the silent bliss of reality."  (OmJaya)

  " My deepest being knows neither birth nor death. It wasn't created now, never did it come into being, nor will it be born in the future. Unborn, eternal, ever existing and timeless. And though the body dies, it will never pass away."  (Bhagavad Gita)

  " When the eternity consciousness continued into the following days, weeks, months, and years my bewilderment was intensified as I discovered how all kinds of negative human experiences became marvels of creation when experienced by the Dazzling Dark. When the word "home" is used to describe eternity, there is an almost irresistible temptation to think of life as a journey of return, whereas mystical awakening for me has been the realization that I never really left home and never could. "  (John Wren-Lewis)

  Awareness Play
Garden in the Hills
Wu Wei
David Whyte
Nothing is Yours
Family Constellations
Carlos Castaneda
Annette Nibley
Paul Lowe
Transactional Analysis
Humanistic Psychology

The devil whispered in my ear,
"you're not strong enough to withstand the storm."
 Today I whispered in the devil's ear, "I am the storm."

Garden in the Hills 
Nothing is Yours 
"In the world yet not of the world,
all a sane man can ever think about is how to give love.